John Humphrys on the Today show (BBC Radio 4’s flagship news broadcast) appears so unshakable, so sure and confident. His radio interviews with famous politians often make for gripping drive-to-work listening. Without doubt the magnitizing factor is his nagging ability to relentlessly press his interviewee for the hard facts, the truth, not a dismissive answer that skirts around the truth.
To a small measure, it keeps politians and public figures in check, it goes some way to establishing clear quotable, accountable, facts - straight from the horses’ mouths, so to speak. That, without doubt, is a good thing and for that the man is to be praised. But this time he has gone for the big scoop. Not a lowly junior minister, or a cabinent minister, or the prime minister or even a foreign royalty or president. No, John Humphrys has gone for God. Gone looking, that is, for God.
He recalls that as a child he pondered life’s ‘big questions’; namely - the purpose of life and the uncertainty of death. However “my spiritual journey took me from my childish Big Questions to my ultimate failure to find any corresponding Big Answers.” Hence he became a doubter. Half a century of religious praying with no certainty that the God he was ‘praying’ to even existed (let alone was listening to him) mixed with the horrors that international journalism introduced him to led him to doubt God and try athiesm.
The problem was, that didn’t ‘click’ either. The title of his book is as good a summary of the content as you will find: In God we Doubt. Confessions of a Failed Athiest. John is an agnostic, and proud to call himself one.
Having recently read the book I must confess it has a lot going for it. I personally struggled to put it down. He captured my mind and drew me into his thought pattern. I often found myself being drawn through the same emotions that he clearly has endured. Overall, he falls neither on the side of God or the side of the athiests, which is to be expected from a agnostic viewpoint.
Approaching the book from a Christian perspective I felt desperately sorry for the man. He tries so hard to believe, he wants to believe, but can’t bring himself to do so. His original radio series was entitled ’Humphrys in search of God’ and he can’t be faulted for not looking hard enough, but therein lies the problem. It seems to me that he has been looking too hard.
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart” (Jeremiah 29v13) - not all of your mind and all of your academic powers. Sure, use those to learn more about God, but to find God Himself requires heart seeking. It a nutshell it requires faith. To his credit, Humphrys sees this and acknowledges it. He even envies those who have faith.
The hard man who humbles politians can’t bring himself to believe in God with simple faith. Yet God requires it. The book of Hebrews is explicit in stating that “he who comes to God must believe that He is” - in faith. Faith is the essential prerequisite, and it is the gift of God.
The book centres on a set of intervies carried out with leading religious figures including the Archbishop of Canterbury who wasn’t sky high in my estimation before I read the book and is even lower now. His shameless dodge out when asked about the eternal plight of those who are not Christians and his effectual deniel of Jesus as the only way to Heaven is as tragic as it is erroneous. Equally profitless was the time Humphrys spent with Giles Fraser - an outspoken C of E vicar. Having heard him on radio 4’s ‘Thought for the day’ uncatagorically deny a literal 6 day creation I wasn’t holding great hopes for his contribution.
Needless to say, I wasn’t wrong. ‘Ask him if the resurrection of Jesus Christ really happened and he says: “Umm . . . dunno . . . can’t prove it.” ‘. Paul was right - if Christ is not risen then our faith is futile! Ask him about evangelical Christians and he snorts: “Evangelicals have misunderstood the Bible. They turn it into some Ikea manual.” To be honest, I’d rather Humprys read his time reading an Ikea manual, it would have done him more good than the so called Christians who he turned to for help. It is any wonder, then, that the poor man can’t accept faith? If vicars can’t - how can he? He tries to read the Bible but can’t take it literally - because that is wrong according to the ‘experts’.
Ultimately though it is the man himself who continues to wrestle with the ‘big questions’. But until he takes to heart the teaching of Jesus, he will continue to doubt. “I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the Kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” (Mark 10v15).